There’s been a lot of chatter the last couple years over “de-conversion” stories. Of course, there is the story of well-known pastor and author Joshua Harris, as well as the Youtube comedians Rhett and Link.
I’ve written on this phenomenon myself in a number of places, including my recent book, The 10 Commandments of Progressive Christianity, as well as my my article, “The Power of De-conversion Stories: How Jen Hatmaker is Trying to Change Minds about the Bible.”
So, what exactly is de-conversion? In short, it’s when a person who is deeply committed to the Christian faith ends up leaving the Christian faith and abandoning their prior beliefs. Sometimes this involves a wholesale rejection of Christianity (e.g., Bart Ehrman), but in other cases it involves embracing an altogether different version of the faith (e.g., Rob Bell). So, not all de-conversion scenarios are the same.
The key feature of de-conversion, however, is that the individual was once on the “inside” of the faith, and later ends up on the “outside.”
In theological parlance, this is called apostasy. And the Bible is filled with examples of apostasy, the most famous, of course, being Judas Iscariot. He was the consummate “insider” who abandoned Jesus and effectively left his old life behind.
We can also find examples of apostasy—symbolically and figuratively—in the world of literature and film. Most obvious is the story of Anakin Skywalker, once a Jedi but later wooed to the dark side of the force, becoming Darth Vader. But there are many others (think Cypher in The Matrix).
But, perhaps one of the most remarkable (and often overlooked) examples of apostasy is Saruman in Tolkien’s Lord of the Rings. In many ways, Saruman has always been an odd part of the plot line. With a bad guy like Sauron to occupy the reader’s attention, why does the story even need a character like Saruman? Besides, as my kids always complain, his name actually sounds a lot like Sauron’s which makes everything very confusing.
My hunch, though, is that the name similarity is intentional. Tolkien’s world is more nuanced than just the good guys and the bad guys. Instead, there are actually good guys that become bad guys—which makes things very complicated. It’s a perfect picture of de-conversion.
As such, we can learn a lot about the way de-conversions work through stories like Saruman’s. So, here are a few quick observations:
1. Saruman was very much on the “inside” before de-converting. As the chief of the Wizards and head of the White Council, he was a leader among those who were opposed to Sauron. He was a trusted advisor and friend to many, including Gandalf.
Lesson: You can’t always see de-conversion coming. Before a person de-converts, they can look as solid as can be.
2. Saruman became enamored by the ways of the enemy. Saruman became an expert in the rings of power, which made him a great asset. But, it was his interest in ring lore that led to his downfall because he eventually lusted after the power that the rings could bring him.
Lesson: De-conversion is sometimes preceded by a desire for the power and prestige offered by the world.
3. Saruman mocked his old allies, insisting they were uneducated simpletons. As Saruman became more open about his new direction, he was quick to criticize the world he left behind. A fellow wizard, Radagast the Brown, takes the brunt of Saruman’s mocking: “‘Radagast the Brown!’ laughed Saruman, and he no longer concealed his scorn. ‘Radgast the Bird-Tamer! Radagast the Simple! Radagast the Fool!'”
Lesson: Those who de-convert often criticize (sometimes in a virulent manner) the evangelical world they left behind.
4. Saruman presented his de-conversion as a step toward enlightenment. As the head of the council, Saruman always wore a white robe. But when Gandalf confronts him at Orthanc, he notices that he has changed to a robe “woven of all colors.” This symbolized a shift away from absolute truth towards pluralism; towards what is progressive. This is evident in Saruman’s next words, “‘White!’ he sneered. ‘It serves as a beginning.'”
Lesson: Those who de-convert present their shift as one towards progress and enlightenment. In their mind, it is forward not backward.
5. Saruman tries to convince others to join him in his de-conversion. When Saruman first confronts Gandalf, he is not out to destroy him, but to “evangelize” him. He tries to convince Gandalf to join him in this new pathway. Incredibly, Saruman even tries to convince Gandalf that they can accomplish more good if they take this new direction: “Knowledge, Rule, Order; all the things that we have so far striven in vain to accomplish.”
Lesson: Those who de-convert are often evangelistic in recruiting others to join them.
In the end, Saruman functions as a remarkably accurate picture of what de-conversion is like. Tolkien was onto something. In the real world, it is not as simple as the “good guys” and the “bad guys.” Sometimes things are more complicated than that.
Thankfully, there are people like Gandalf who resist them. When discussing Saruman’s shiny new robe, Gandalf’s response is refreshingly simple: “I liked white better.”
Angus J says
“… a robe ‘woven of all colors.'” sounds remarkably like a rainbow robe to me. Now what connotations does that have?
On the subject of apostasy, John Piper recently published an article on this on his website, titled ‘How do people shipwreck their faith?’, which the author and readers here might be interested in.
Richard T Ritenbaugh says
The rainbow flag as used by homosexuals (introduced in 1978) was not around at the time Tolkien wrote Saruman’s story. I think the professor uses the robe “woven of all colors” to express Saruman’s embrace of the broad spectrum of knowledge (both true and untrue = Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil, if you will) and behavior in defiance of the singular TRUTH and its consequent behaviors that he had once upheld.
Adam Dean says
Thanks to Angus J for referring me to John Piper’s podcast on the subject. John Piper shares:
“But in the end, the New Testament teaches that it is possible to make a start in the Christian life, perhaps a very long start, and then throw it away and be lost.
Not that God ever loses any of his children or any of his elect. He keeps them, according to 1 Corinthians 1:9, 1 Thessalonians 5:24, Philippians 1:6, and Romans 8:30.”
I think this is a needed perspective in any discussion of apostasy.
Timothy Mitchell says
This is so good. Thank you for this observation. I have been reading the series to my son and it has spurned many deeper discussions about life. This is something that I will bring up and we will discuss. Thank you
Elizabeth Storm says
Really great article – thank you so much. The only item that caused me to pause was this comment:. “This symbolized a shift away from absolute truth towards pluralism; towards what is progressive.”
It wasn’t clear from the text if you are focusing on only religious/theological pluralism or civic pluralism as well. Given the context of deconversion, I assume we are solely referring to religious pluralism. I of course affirm there is one way to be saved – faith in Jesus. There is no other name.
If by chance civic pluralism was also a focus – and given some recent articles by other leading evangelicals it is certainly a possibility – I would point fellow readers to an article by Bethany Jenkins back in 2014. Key quote: “… we know that no one is converted through the power of the state, but only through the power of the Spirit (John 16:13).” I’ve seen so many Christians act as if the the Great Commission was a civic duty rather than a spiritual one.
Thank you for the article and your work for the Kingdom.
Anonymous says
I find it interesting that the majority of these points on “de-conversion” simularly also describes the response of a Christian when coming to faith. This article is generally describing the nature of a convert.
Keith says
How does the term de-conversion enter in here. It sounds as if you believe or at least suggest that it is possible to be unsaved or un-regenerated from salvation in Jesus Christ?
Does not 1 John 2:18-19. Lay to rest this idea. Even to plainly say antichrists who claimed to be with us in fellowship with the Father and the Son though eventually went out i.e. went back to being who they alway were. Never converted is more to the truth.
And to suggest this is a phenomenon. Well to the non-converted, and to the almost maybe not quite converted, and unto the many babes in Christ converted whom yet want to discuss and continue to publish such nonsense may believe it so yes an oddity.
But is it not so that little children in the faith are to be taught through the Word to discern and know of such things? 1 John 2:20-23
John says
Other than high profile examples, what evidence do you have to support your 5 claims about de-converts?
How much have you tried engaging with de-converts, rather than comparing them to evil wizards and Darth Vader?
Have you tried engaging with the work of Marlene Winell, her book ‘Leaving the Fold’, and the concept of religious trauma syndrome? A challenging and difficult path, but there is perhaps common ground with your work on spiritual abuse – an opportunity to build bridges, and to make some peace.
Sarah says
This reminds me of the movie “Pleasantville”. In it color is seen as fun and colorful but it also seems to go along with lustful behavior. Black and white is seen as fuddy duddy and boring. Of course the movie plays this out backwards but this is what I saw in it. In that movie the female characters evangelizes not only her brother but a whole town.